(Mis)conceptions and Great Expectations: beta

Monday, May 4, 2009

beta

My nurse just called. Apparently the lab still had an extra six embies they were watching last night (this is on top of the four frozens), but they all arrested this morning. Perhaps they would have done better in vivo - who knows? Gives me a weird feeling.

My beta has been moved to Friday, May 15. I don't know why, but I didn't ask because that was fine with me!

I will start testing on the 12th, though. And not a moment sooner, you POAS pushers out there! You know who you are! ;) hahaha

Seriously, I do need in-person help with the POAS thing. Though I do know how to pee on a stick all by myself, I cannot decode and interpret those tests to save my life. (I never was one for using them in the first place: I always waited for af, though in retrospect I wish I hadn't.) I could just get a digital, but they're not as sensitive to HCG.

Plus I need the moral support!

10 comments:

PCOSDC said...: myth: digitals are not as sensitive as regular HPT's.

5 weeks post D&C I was feeling weird. All I had was an old digi so I took it and it was positive. I freaked out (I wasn't ready to do that again) and so I took about 5 more regular HPT's over the next few days but all were very very faint/BFN.

That's my true HPT story.

Anyways I can't wait for the 12th!; May 4, 2009 at 2:51 p.m.
Anonymous said...: Hey there! I just wanted to say that I'm sorry I lost touch with you! I took an unexpected TTC break after our loss, but I have to say I've been praying for you and thinking about you a lot! I found it almost Ironic to find out you had done IVF and transferred again! My second FET transfer is tomorrow! Didn't we go through this together last time too!?! Best wishes to you and hopefully you will get that sticky bean you've been working so hard for! We'd love to have you back on the site too! All the turtles miss you, and I miss your wit and humor! Take care!

Sara (sunshine_4_jt); May 4, 2009 at 3:16 p.m.
Victoria said...: OHW, I missed out on your transfer but I read and noticed that everything was almost perfect.

6 blasts? Awsome! I feel that, not one, but all two will stick.

Glad you got to freeze some embies (wise decision) and sorry about the ones that arrested.; May 4, 2009 at 9:48 p.m.
Kate said...: Four frozen is great.
Just post HPT pics for us to look at - I'm sure most of us are pros at interpreting them by now.; May 4, 2009 at 10:44 p.m.
..al said...: Lady...I can give you moral and emotional support...just don't request physical supoort.....! ;)

It surely must be weird...but remember you have all the good ones frozen and two inside their natural environment...You are on a good ground....it was obvious that some of the embies were doing better than the rest...

May 15th it is then!

You know I have seen a lot of IF bloggers taking pictures of the pee-sticks when the reading time comes, and posting it and asking if people can or cannot see the other line....perhpas you could do the same....

sensitive or not...a digital POAS won't have you needing a magnifying glass....or you could be trying both the kinds....(two drops here and two drops there)....

Waiting with you...rooting for you!!!; May 4, 2009 at 10:55 p.m.
Michele said...: I'm sorry about your 6 little ones. Sadness... :(

I've always had bad luck with HPTs (except this cycle), but I recommend the ones where you dont actually POAS. You pee in a cup and then use a dropper to drop urine in a window. I find those to be practically fool proof! (And those are the ONLY ones that have ever worked for me, LOL!); May 5, 2009 at 9:00 a.m.
Anonymous said...: I always thought digitals, esp that clearblue digital that I am totally obssessed with, are more sensitive to hcg than other run of the mill "look and squint for the second line" pee sticks! Clearblue digital detects about 25 units of hcg in the wee, thats pretty good value. I've POAS'd on normal sticks before and the lines have been really really faint, at least with a digital, you get the news. If its a BFN, its like a blunt instrument to the nethers, but if it says "pregnant" what a sweet, sweet feeling that is.

My 2 cents.

Good luck for the 12th! That's when my next scan is! Hopefully, we'll both have good news.

S; May 5, 2009 at 9:35 a.m.
one-hit_wonder said...: Thanks for all the comments, ladies.

S and PCOSDC: It's a myth? I thought the Clearblue in Canada, for instance, measured 50 units?
I dunno. I don't get these stick things!

Michele: I've never heard of that kind of test - maybe they're not available in Canada?

Sara: Hi!!! I don't know how to get in touch with you off of SC, so ask a Mutant for my e-mail address! Let's talk!; May 5, 2009 at 6:52 p.m.
Anonymous said...: hmm, I didnt realise clearblue had like different country versions, wtf. I still think the digital ones are more sensitive, just from past experience!

the one we get in aust. says it measures a min of 25 iu/ml... which is pretty sweet. I know its not good to be passing on what could possibly be wrong info, but this site http://www.fertilityplus.org/faq/hpt.html helped me pick the digital.

S; May 5, 2009 at 11:10 p.m.
Anonymous said...: you had 2 blasties transferred, right?? thats why they moved your beta forward. duh. I had to go back and read the previous post. I'm sorry about the 6 lost ones though. god, that sucks. hopefully you wont need it!

S; May 5, 2009 at 11:11 p.m.

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I'm a teacher and an aspiring writer. I love reading, writing, watching good TV, photography, fashion, and great food. I just finished my graduate degree in Education.

My partner and I tried to conceive, on and off, for over 7 years. I have PCOS (so borderline that it was never really an issue) and the dude has severe male factor. We started this screwy trip by getting misdiagnosed (buddy, you're fine! - your wife has the problem!). I should sue that first clinic.

We had one IVF/ICSI which resulted in a miscarriage. We will not forget.

We got out of the IVF Funhouse over a year ago and my RE told me I was knocked up, but I didn't believe him. I still don't, even though as I type these words the most beautiful 8-month-old girl in the world is sitting on my lap.

Ciao,

One Hit Wonder (now literally!)

(And, thanks to my friends, also known as 'Our Lady of the Lost and Found' and 'Academia Whore.')

TTC c.v.

crap, i should update this list. i did have a baby recently.
Oct 2: Midwife appointment.
Sept. 1: Midwife appointment. Should get a booking for an ultrasound.
August 11: Started (very tentatively) to buy baby necessities.
August 7: Felt baby move!
August 4: Midwife appointment: emotional health check-up. She also says I'm measuring 2 weeks ahead.
July 22: Gp says I'm measuring ahead.
July 9: Told DH's sister, BIL, and 2 nephews. DH and I phone his niece, who's sick with swine flu, to tell her the news - she's in charge of telling the rest of DH's family.
July 7: First appointment with midwife; heard heartbeat. Told my family and then DH's mom. Got doppler in the mail.
June 30: Bought maternity clothes.
June 26: Second u/s and last obstetrical appointment with RE.
June 8: Phoned midwife with u/s news; will set up appointment after we've moved.
June 5: First u/s and obstetrical appointment. One heart doing 140 bpm. :)
May 21: Third beta - 824!!!
May 19: Repeat beta - 309.
May 15: Beta - 113.
May 14: The vaguest of positives, part deux.
May 13: The vaguest of positives. Midwife phones; I don't return the call.
May 12: Afternoon BFN on $ store test.
May 11: BFP! Scared! Already did an intake with a midwife.
May 8: A LOT anxious.
May 7: A little anxious.
May 3: Day 5: Transfer: 2 lovely blasts, already hatching. 4 blasts frozen for later. RE says I have moderate OHSS. Acupuncture.
May 2: Day 4. No updates. Take antibiotic.
May 1: Day 3. Still have 15; 5 are in the lead.
Apr 30: Day 2: 1 embie arrested; 15 developing well. Feeling ill.
Apr 29: Day 1: Fertilization report: 20 mature eggs and 16 fertilized! Speechless! Start Prometrium (3x/day) and Estrace (2x/day).
Apr 28: Egg retrieval. 21 eggs retrieved. Stop coenzyme q-10.
Apr 27: Bloodwork and acupuncture.
Apr 26: Monitoring. Full OHSS protocol. Trigger before bed.
Apr 25: Monitoring. OHSS protocol 'lite.'
Apr 24: Monitoring and acupuncture.
Apr 23: Monitoring.
Apr 22: Monitoring.
Apr 20: Monitoring. Afc 35+. Estrogen 1100.
Apr 17: Pre-stim assessment. Afc 20 and estrogen great. Start Puregon 125 units.
Apr 10: Last bcp. Woot!
Apr 7: Start medically induced menopause (aka: Lupron).
Apr 6: Endometrial biopsy (ouch!), cycle review, $11,070 due. Cyst aspiration cancelled - it burst and is disappearing on its own.
March 21: Start bcp
March 19: Day 3 u/s and b/w. B/w results excellent. U/s shows massive cyst on my purely decorative right ovary; RE wants $500 to aspirate it. wtf?
March 17: CD1 - we're back in the IVF Funhouse
March 11-16, 2009: Spotting. Come on, af!!!
March-May 2009: Second IVF/ICSI/AH (long protocol, plus endometrial biopsy). Hannam says no to Glumetza, as per new research. Waiting for af so I can start Marvelon.
March 2009: Follow-up with Hannam. All tests negative, plus DH’s DNA frag test comes out awesome – better than most men’s! (Though his morphology and motility are still abysmal.) I start extra folic acid again, as well as co-q10.
Feb 2009: Mf testing.
Jan 2009: Negative beta. Clinic says to go straight to IVF stims, no mf testing. DH and I argue about donor. We talk about separating. Switch clinics. Hannam orders mf testing and puts DH on new massive doses of antioxidants. I have karyotyping and SHG. I try a new TCM doctor, but it all COSTS so much!
Dec 2009: FET/AH with Grade 2 5-cell. Faint + on one test at 10 dpt, then nothing.
Nov 2008: WTF appointment - RE says male factor is the cause of our problem, and probably not the PCOS. I go off Glumetza, as per TCM doc’s recommendations, as it’s crashing my blood sugar.
Oct 8, 2008: M/c at 4 weeks 5 days.
Oct. 7, 2008: Beta 20. Start bleeding late at night.
Oct 5, 2008: BFP! Best day of my life. I go to DH's workplace to surprise him.
Aug - Sept 2009: IVF/ICSI (long protocol). 11 eggs, 5 fertilize. (Hardly any sperm at all after the wash.) 2 die on day 3. We transfer 2 average graders; freeze 1.
Summer 2008: At WTF appointment, RE recommends IVF/ICSI. DH starts vitamins. I've been taking vits all along, but now I start acupuncture and Chinese meds, too.
Spring 2008: Injects/IUI. Only 1 follie, for whatever bizarre reason. DH's mf discovered – less than 1 million survive wash, plus motility and morphology SUCK.
August 2007-March 2008: Move 2000 km, partly to find decent IF clinic; WAIT for provincial medical coverage to begin, and then wait some more for RE referral. In the meantime, on vacay in Central America, I o and again don’t get pg – I realize that a natural pg isn’t in the cards.
July 2007: Lap and hyst - ok, except my right ovary is purely decorative, which I knew. No injects yet – huge family issues.
Dec 2006-March 2007: Clomid 4x- BFN -s/a again ok, my bloodwork fine – I beg for thorough tests for myself –HSG is clear.
Dec 2006: First appointment with RE, who is out to lunch in every way, but since we’re in an underfunded and remote area, there’s no choice.
June 3, 2006: DH watches Big Daddy movie and decides that he wants a baby. S/a ok. Referral to IF clinic. I start charting. Am amazed that no one ever told me I could read my body’s fertility signs.
Sometime in 2004 – June 2, 2006: TTC on hold - DH not interested anymore, and I'm in a series of devastating car accidents (none my fault) that wreck my back. Start M.A. Go on Met at some point, even though my bloodwork is now normal and my ovaries don’t look that bad, but it does nothing for me.
Spring 2002- 2004: TTC casually. I don’t know what ‘ovulation’ or ‘Fertility Friend’ are. I never POAS, nor do I care.
Spring 2002: DH’s uncle dies. We think life is too short, so we toss the bcp.
2001 or so: PCOS dx (amenorrhea, right ovary anovulatory, LH:FSH out of control, hair loss, acne, fatigue). I spend the next few years bringing it under control with diet and exercise.
1996: Af always out of whack, so I get bcp (which adds 15 lbs to my frame). Doctors will not test to see what’s going on.

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