clarification

Af has made a liar out of me. Oh well, not the first time. So I emailed my nurse, as per her instructions, to find out what to do.

I feel bad for whining about af. I know lots of women who have amenorrhea; I know how much it sucks because I used to be someone who rarely bled, too (maybe once/year?), due to PCOS. And then, every once in a while, I'd have episodes of prolonged bleeding (weeks at a time). It blows.

Until IVF #1, I was able to get my cycles down to 30-38 days (with 'normalized' bloodwork and ok-looking ovaries) - thanks to revised diet and regular exercise - hence the new 'borderline' PCOS dx by Hannam. My right ovary still doesn't work, but the left one has taken over, which I hear isn't unusual. This was around a 5-year process.

But now I'm back to being anovulatory, bloodless, etc. All my hard work has come undone. Thank you IVF, I feel like a star.

Hannam says that when I'm not TTC (will there ever be such a time?), he'll aspirate all my follicles, and that should get regular cycles going again. I miss my cycles for other reasons: I love ovulating partly because I feel so energetic and creative at that time.

Anyway, just wanted to clarify that, for those of you who battle with natural cycles all the time - I want you to know that I have been there at one point. I still get offended by fertiles (and here I mean women with babies) who complain about menstruation (unless there's a good reason) because they don't know how good they have it.