slept all day

Slept all day. Something about retrievals and transfers wears me out. So I won't sleep tonight, but that is okay: I like being awake and knowing there's a real something in my uterus. Even if it is 'just' a 5-cell, grade 2 embryo. I never ever thought we'd get this far this time. Sorry to keep repeating myself, but I guess I'm still in shock.

DH is eternally optimistic. He says this will work; it has to because the due date would be on his birthday in September. Practically everyone in his huge family was born in September. (His SIL and I did the math one year, and realized that they all get knocked up around Christmastime - guess they're all trying to stay warm.) Siiiiigh. I told him not to get my hopes up. It's so hard not to feel optimistic, though, after all the hurdles we crossed. But I've got to rein it in. I can't stand being crushed like I was (and still am) last time. But, at the same time, I want to enjoy what I have, for however long it lasts.